How much of your day are you consuming what others have produced by themselves and how often do you create?
How can you build a platform this year for you to stand on next year?
What are you doing what actually matters?
How can you inject more of the awe into your life?
Too much! I had this thought once, more food related, but now I am actually directing this text to what we want to do with our lives personally and professionally.
How dependent of others are we? How much am I contributing to the world?How much am I really just taking? I´m talking about an horizont of things, like the buildings we live in, the cars we drive (or want to), the media we use, like the small things we use daily, the apps on our phones, the space what we call our habitat, the food we eat, the movies we watch, the mass of advertisement we consume.
This is in reality nothing else than the dreams of others we extended in our own life.
The thing is that nowadays most of the people just live their lives with the purpose of fitting in, some of them because they just have gone with the flow and were never really preocupite taking time to think about it, others just need to stop the time and reorganize what they really want, like in my case.
A couple of months ago I applied for an internal career development program in the company I work for.
I finished the whole thing and did the final exam and was approved, but before I should repeat the same exam a month later to settle the program I started writting this text.. and refused.
I was frankly to myself and conscience enough to open my eyes at this point and reconsider if those were really the steps I wanted to go, the conclusion was NO.
It was frustrating for me, spending time on something I though it would be right because my life had brought me this oportunity and it was hard to be honest with myself and deny it!
It was an oportunity for a career I never wanted to have, it was someone elses dream that I thought I could go for. But would I be happy with it? was there anything in this dream that has something to do with my dreams my ambitions?NO.
Later a lot of situations happened and on a Friday I was asked in the office of the Manager of my project.
I had some previous manifests of demotivation and she/he wanted to talk to me to know how things would be from now on.
I did something, that probably no one in a work enviroment ever should do, when talking to a boss.
Beeing honest! :D
I said exactly the same thing I wrote before in other words. Beside the fact that I haven´t learned much for such a HUGE improvement the program standed for, I just couldn´t see myself in all the possible roles they might have offered me. I just haven´t spend so much time of my life persuing what I love doing, to shut me down in an everyones comercial career dream.
Good or bad, this kind of thinking is a threat for every big company, when you are not willing to fit in, you´re out. Not legally but you will be marked. Respect is something what starts to be served with a portion of cynicism. Beeing your boss directly attached to such a system, it will be hard for him/her to tell you that you are right. Beeing you a compreensive person, you feel sorry for him/her because the free will of choice you have, is a sign of courage she/he could never state due to ethic restrictions she/he should stand for in the name of the company.
I will stay till I have to, but hard working on the direction I want to go!
Now I am just filling a job and preparing myself to create one.
Because I am not creating money, I am surviving based on what everyone else think it´s acceptable. It´s not!
No one I know is creating values, just paychecks based on everyone elses dreams.
So what is our consumer vs creator ratio?
A friend of mine Angy, told me that my time came and significant changes will start beginning.
Positioning myself to create more is not done with the next best choice which knocks on my door, which gaves me more of what I already know.
It´s actually filtering what you have what´s missing in all the base concepts you already took part of or experienced on your own.
It´s molding something new, with a certain doses awe you start injecting in your life.
It will not happen by the usual way everyone tries to open doors and get possibilities to show on someone elses platforms what they are made of , but more about building your own platform where you can start develop and creating your own values.
Our minds get so engrained in the mundane patterns of every day life that it becomes harder and harder for us to break outside of these patterns and encourage ourselves to do actually something to earn money what excites us.
If you are aware of all of this, you can count with an infinite amount of work, because at this point the limit is as far as your mind stretches. What is matematically neverending :)
Based on this we can get to the next question, about what are we doing what really matters?
We set ourselves free, creating our own conditions respecting what´s important in our lives and sacrifying our health for what our heart beats for.
I don’t see myself going back to full time employment any time soon after this experience.
And I can not tell where exactly I want to go, you can be everything you wish, but what matters is what you keep doing. And with this question I will finish: What can I do today to send me down that path?
All of you know, whatever it is, keep doing it. :)
I´ve been liking those reflections at the end of the day..
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